The New Year

So im kind of new at this blogging thing but im just going try it out anyway. I went back to youth group for the first time in a couple of weeks because of break. We were upstairs during worship and my youth leader was playing softly and just said this is the first time we were worshiping together in the new year. I was worshiping but i wasnt feeling it 100 percent in my heart. Once he said that my attitude changed. All i could think about was is this the way i wanted to start my new year. Stressed out, angry, holding onto the past. Just then i just let all of it go. I wanted this new year to be a fresh start a clean slate, so that is what i did. At times i tend to put myself on higher standards and i assume that is what the world expects of me. In reality im going screw up but its nice to know that i have a gracious God that no matter what i do he wont love me any less. That as much as i think i have to earn his love he gave it to me free. I guess some of the best things in life really are free.
One of my best friends tara and i went to this christian store and we found this quote on life and it really stuck out to me. It said Life is not a race- but indeed a journey. Be honest. Work hard. Be choosy. Say "thank you", "I love you", and "great job" to someone every day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh. Let your hand shake mean more than pen and paper. Love your life and what you've been given, it is not accidental- search for your purpose and do it as best as you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you aspire to be. Laugh often. Appreciate the little things in life and enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, less wrinkles are more becoming. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself- plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know. Live for today, ejoy the moment.
As we talked in Youth group last night about what we think God wants to teach it us right now, i think God wants to show me how to live my life in him. That where i am, the family i have, friends im blessed with wasnt a mistake and he has a plan for me. I can do anything through God and as much as i try to be independant i need God.